The Fault In Our Stars

I finally finished reading "The Fault In Our Stars" by John Green yesterday night after consecutively hiding under the covers for the past few nights reading it on my phone (^___^) It was a good book!!!! i could hardly bare to stop reading it once i started but i had to cus i had to go to school the next day.  used the time where i was supposed to do my work to read but it was a pretty good investment (at least that's what i think). yes i've really really missed reading :-( stepped into k i n o k u n i y a   the other day to get lea michele's book (so happy hehe) and somehow i just really really wished i could stay in there and read my whole day away. i saw so many books that i want to read but yet i couldn't buy them cus i probably wouldn't have the time to read them :< and yeah my mum would most likely not allow me to buy them haha and i guess the reason why i really enjoy reading is because when i'm reading, it's just me and the book. no distractions. no other parties involved. just me and the characters in the book. it allows me to fully imagine and picture what each scene would be like and it seems as though i'm in this imaginary void created by myself where i could momentarily forget the world that i'm living in. that's a pretty rare feeling as we are often caught up in our social lives and being constantly surrounded by people. reading has the capability of making me feel this way. 

 well this book made me realise how much our lives are better than many people out there :-)  more often than not, i kinda dislike books that have sad endings cus they make me cry quite a bit but yet i still love reading them cus it kinda makes me realise how fragile life is, where one day we could have everything but probably nothing the next day.  here we are often complaining how life sucks ( i admit i do too) becus of all the stress we're under, how we have this unending amount of work to do and so on but yet we never really thought about how other people out there in this world are suffering much more in ways worse than us. reading's a m a z i n g and it allows me think deeper about life and i'm just feeling really grateful for the creation of books <3

anyways can i say how hard it is to find a perfect blogskin!!!!! it's like i have this blogskin imagined out in my mind but i can't find it online and the noob me is too noob to create my own blogskin :<< saw pretty blogskins that i really like online but i have to buy them sobzpie :(

well the june hols have started and i haven't really gotten down to studying like super fast and well but at least i'm doing something everyday. at least it's a start????? and i really hope to meet my friends but be able to balance my studies too and somehow make it out of all this!!!!! really wish to fast-forward time to post A levels period where we can do all the fun stuff and live without worries but i guess it's "no pain no gain"? on the bright side, can't wait to watch the movie TFIOS!!!!! hopefully it'll be good hehe :-) but i'll most probably cry haha

Kays sorry for the random post but just felt like putting all these thoughts into proper words and well, hope everyone has a fruitful and productive holiday ^___^

P.S. Listen to the Counting stars cover by the Gardiner Sisters and All of the Stars by Ed Sheeran if you haven't :-))

So open your eyes and see
the way our horizons meet
and all of the lights will leave
into the night with me
And I know these scars will bleed
but both of our hearts believe
All of these s t a r s will guide us home

(^___^)