the start of something new

Very happy to have finally ended work at MOE after 6 long months!!!!!! :-) the people i met were v nice but the job itself is definitely not ideal and kinda too boring for me so YAY to no more copy and paste hehehehehe (at least for now)

Went for two uni camps ever since i stopped work and i would say they have been quite good experiences and I'm both happy and relieved to have made nice new friends :-)

First up, USP FOC 2015 :)

YAY NIGHTFURY HEHEE (without yingwen cus she left camp early :( )

Happy to meet this group of people :-) v v thankful that the girls in my og were nice n friendly and chill!!!!! cus we were imagining ourselves being in the other groups where there are fiercer girls and thinking how it would be harder to fit in and yay just feeling v thankful! did not win the best og but we won best cheer??? (that is quite funny hahaha) but all the hokkien cheers will definitely be memorable! but in general, the usp people seem quite nice though there r some that i feel a little afraid of but hope to get to know the other usp mates from other ogs throughout the 4 years :) my GLs were really really nice too :) and looking forward to our overseas trip at the start of next year! :)

WKW CAMP: Tales of Arkadium

SICARIO #pewpew one of the nicest group photos i've had in a long time hehehe

abi :-) hehe totally laughed at how we saved each other's contact as name - SNGS/Floorball/WKW haha
but v thankful to have abi in the same og as me hehehe definitely helped make me feel more comfortable at camp cus at least there was someone i know and yes definitely grew closer to her through camp hehe

WKW QUEEN HEHE but yes here's my pretty GL nerissa :-) i think her beauty grows on people becus as u get to know her u realise how beautiful she is inside n out and she can dance really well n has a cool voice! #innergirlcrush haha

Zisong a.k.a chicken little x auntie lucy hehehe he totally looks like a kid but he is a v v nice gl too hehehe number 11!!!!

an ning :-) mj floorball line 1 defender hehehe happy to have met her at camp!!!

tying two pony tails as part of a challenge hehe always reminds me of how 3 hope girls all tied it on april fools day hehe

cutiepie violet :-))) we became friends becus we found each other cute!!! but she is the genuine cutiepie!!! definitely a new friend who i'm closer to among the rest ;-) and she loves shoes too hhehe 

took a pic with Zack & Cody hehehehe cus gl on the left is called Zack and SA on the right is called Cody hehehe disney channel dream come true??? just keeding!!!! but v nice seniors too hehe cody is hilarious!!! but first class honours, respect respect :)

camp partners in crime :) v thankful for ally and abi :) and they have the same birthday hehe #vj

st nicks <3 hehehehe v happy to see sng ying again!!! we remembered each other hehehe

CINTA (our main girl crush who is pretty much perfect and so hotttttt :) hehehhe)

met yeehwee's friend cheryl hehe and yijia who i thought was small but is actually ard the same height as me :( she looks small from my perspective though :( and she is v v good w the guitar hehehe

vj soccer legend khai! and trashy Kelvin hehe happy to meet u guys at camp too :)

SICARIO WON BEST OG HEHEHEE <3 but yup wkw camp was quite tamed which made it a good and fun experience!!!!! and had some activities that will keep us bonded together :-) thankful to make nice new friends but most of them r so popz n hipster n cool which makes fitting in/surviving in school a legit issue right now :( the struggle to fit in has nvr been more real but oh wells can't do much about it now except hope for the best!!!! and hope da cool kids want to be my friends hahaha

hahhaa sianz i am such a loserr

OHHHH THE IRONYYYY 

Funny how people do the things they say they dislike others doing to them to others

Today's kind of a meh day... mondays r always kinda bad becus u get to be so happy during the weekends and then here comes monday that hits you in the face as we all go back to school/work :-( and sometimes i really feel that work now is an extreme waste of time because i could have done so many other more meaningful and fun things that i've wanted to do for a really long time! i mean it's e only proper break where we can actually do things that we want to do and i've always wanted to scoop ice cream/work in a bookstore but my MUM SAYS NO ARGH and like i tried hinting if i could quit at the end of may instead of june instead but she hears nth of it becus i'll be earning money grrrrrrr!!! but really committing till the end of june is seriously quite a dumb thing to do becus i wouldn't even get much time for myself after that becus e uni orientation stuff would mostly fall in july i think and it'll be the "getting ready for uni" phase which means less time to slack n go out w friends so ARGH DUMB ME :( also why wasn't i more insistent on getting a non-office job/why did i choose to get a job through vj which means i cannot go back on my commitment cus bad for school reputation.. sigh seriously one of the things i've regretted!!!!!! i mean like i barely learn anything at work i just copy n paste most of the time.. like would someone give me an award for being able to copy n paste efficiently in e future??? pretty sure the answer is a no. most of the time i'm just waiting for time to pass so that i can go home or rushing to finish things that i have to do so i can just watch youtube videos which helps to keep me sane at work!!!! but then again, who am i to complain about all these becus i agreed to it right from the start (albeit abit unwillingly but i really thought it would be less hiong and more paper work)

another dumb thing i did: oh why oh why was i such a dumb dumb when i was younger where i stupidly let my parents follow me on twitter/instagram and even let my mum have access to my insta acc on her iPad? shucks i am really pretty dumb in life ARGH.

also, pretty bummed that i do not get to travel w friends at all throughout this whole break :( it's smth i have dreamed of ever since i was much younger and i always thought it COULD happen but NO :( it didn't. got rejected by mummy & daddy (stronger rejection from daddy) not once but TWICE for the same country. way to go deja vu! and yeah i really think in their world almost everywhere/every country is unsafe for me  to go to without them by my side but really???????? and thus, i am secretly quite v excited to stay in hall becus imagine this!!!!! no more having to text mummy where i am/where i'm going and making all these decisions on my own! having the freedom to just hang out w any friends and not having to have my outings approved by mummy and daddy before i can go! most of my friends have this privilege already but to me it's smth new!!!!! i hope things would go as planned and what i've imagined otherwise i'll be really bummed :( say hello to independence YAY

4 more days to end of yet another work week!!!!!!!

thoughts

Suddenly missing people right now :( like friendies (omg i think its really sad how we only get to meet up full strength so rarely!!!!! becus everyone's so busy :<) and tasha!!!!!! gosh tasha (u may or may not read this haha) i think u r really seriously the closest friend i've made in vj hahaha and we r not even e same age?! but it's okay love u many many hehe and i'm v thankful that u r a close friend of mine!!!! <3 becus idk i think a lot of the friends that i've made in vj r nice but i'm just not v close to them??? like sometimes before meeting up i would secretly pray that it won't be awkward cus i always feel v awkward which makes me wonder sometimes, am i a v bad friend?? sigh idk

i guess a lot have happened ever since the last time i properly updated such that there's so much to say that i don't really know where or how to start so i'll just blog about the important ones so that at least i have smth to look back on when i grow up!

tasha <3 thank q for being the only friend who calls me bae!!! makes me feel a lil more special hehe

u look so cutie n happy here! it makes me happy to see u happy :-)

such a bad pic but kinda really missing the times where i could see your faces everyday and just play n talk n laugh tgt all e time!!!!! we look so young then esp dwee haha but those were e good old days that i'll hold dear to my heart for a long long long time :")

need to update this space soon!!!!!!

Confused and overwhelmed and tired.

Last Day of 2014

Still feels pretty surreal how today is the last day of the year!!!! I mean like wow i can't even remember how i exactly felt on the last day last year! 2014 has definitely has it's ups and downs. much as ppl don't believe me, i feel like i've matured over the past 2 years in jc (some ppl have commented so also) becus in a way it exposed me to many things i've never really came across previously. there were many times i had like life crisis (?!?) becus it honestly felt worthless to continue studying becus i'm doing so badly and i really didn't know what i wanna do in life and stuff but i guessed i just learnt to get over it becus it is afterall part of life. jc2 was indeed a tough journey and there were stressful times as well but i guess i'll just take away w me the happy memories and forget the bad stuff becus these are the things that matter and count in the end :) sometimes it still feels kinda weird that i've completed As?? but happy w the things i did after As ^^ and i just wanna thank the people around me for being there, be it talking to me or making me laugh (mostly at myself what even haha), encouraging me when i'm feeling down and basically for being my friend (becus i don't have many many friends haha) <3 don't really know how to pen down how i'm feeling about the year properly into words so these chunky paragraph shall suffice for now :)

Had a lovely catchup w some of my v impt and precious friends these past few days and i'm v v happy that i got to meet them before the year ends <3

Finally finally a full strength outing w my dearest friendies <3 and yay evan is back from aussie!!!!! hehehehe she is still as cute n funny as ever :-) though we only had dinner and ice cream together which meant we spent a short time w one another, i'm still v v happy to see all of them and i really really miss being able to see them every mon-fri in st nicks haha hope we get to meet up more often!!!!!! also v happy that they are the last group of friends i met before the year ends becus i spent today w my parents :) thank you all for a v great night though u just laughed at me n my ahem stories but yay good time :-)

Happy New Year's Eve everyone :-) hope you had a good last day  of 2014 :)