OHHHH THE IRONYYYY 

Funny how people do the things they say they dislike others doing to them to others

Today's kind of a meh day... mondays r always kinda bad becus u get to be so happy during the weekends and then here comes monday that hits you in the face as we all go back to school/work :-( and sometimes i really feel that work now is an extreme waste of time because i could have done so many other more meaningful and fun things that i've wanted to do for a really long time! i mean it's e only proper break where we can actually do things that we want to do and i've always wanted to scoop ice cream/work in a bookstore but my MUM SAYS NO ARGH and like i tried hinting if i could quit at the end of may instead of june instead but she hears nth of it becus i'll be earning money grrrrrrr!!! but really committing till the end of june is seriously quite a dumb thing to do becus i wouldn't even get much time for myself after that becus e uni orientation stuff would mostly fall in july i think and it'll be the "getting ready for uni" phase which means less time to slack n go out w friends so ARGH DUMB ME :( also why wasn't i more insistent on getting a non-office job/why did i choose to get a job through vj which means i cannot go back on my commitment cus bad for school reputation.. sigh seriously one of the things i've regretted!!!!!! i mean like i barely learn anything at work i just copy n paste most of the time.. like would someone give me an award for being able to copy n paste efficiently in e future??? pretty sure the answer is a no. most of the time i'm just waiting for time to pass so that i can go home or rushing to finish things that i have to do so i can just watch youtube videos which helps to keep me sane at work!!!! but then again, who am i to complain about all these becus i agreed to it right from the start (albeit abit unwillingly but i really thought it would be less hiong and more paper work)

another dumb thing i did: oh why oh why was i such a dumb dumb when i was younger where i stupidly let my parents follow me on twitter/instagram and even let my mum have access to my insta acc on her iPad? shucks i am really pretty dumb in life ARGH.

also, pretty bummed that i do not get to travel w friends at all throughout this whole break :( it's smth i have dreamed of ever since i was much younger and i always thought it COULD happen but NO :( it didn't. got rejected by mummy & daddy (stronger rejection from daddy) not once but TWICE for the same country. way to go deja vu! and yeah i really think in their world almost everywhere/every country is unsafe for me  to go to without them by my side but really???????? and thus, i am secretly quite v excited to stay in hall becus imagine this!!!!! no more having to text mummy where i am/where i'm going and making all these decisions on my own! having the freedom to just hang out w any friends and not having to have my outings approved by mummy and daddy before i can go! most of my friends have this privilege already but to me it's smth new!!!!! i hope things would go as planned and what i've imagined otherwise i'll be really bummed :( say hello to independence YAY

4 more days to end of yet another work week!!!!!!!

thoughts

Suddenly missing people right now :( like friendies (omg i think its really sad how we only get to meet up full strength so rarely!!!!! becus everyone's so busy :<) and tasha!!!!!! gosh tasha (u may or may not read this haha) i think u r really seriously the closest friend i've made in vj hahaha and we r not even e same age?! but it's okay love u many many hehe and i'm v thankful that u r a close friend of mine!!!! <3 becus idk i think a lot of the friends that i've made in vj r nice but i'm just not v close to them??? like sometimes before meeting up i would secretly pray that it won't be awkward cus i always feel v awkward which makes me wonder sometimes, am i a v bad friend?? sigh idk

i guess a lot have happened ever since the last time i properly updated such that there's so much to say that i don't really know where or how to start so i'll just blog about the important ones so that at least i have smth to look back on when i grow up!

tasha <3 thank q for being the only friend who calls me bae!!! makes me feel a lil more special hehe

u look so cutie n happy here! it makes me happy to see u happy :-)

such a bad pic but kinda really missing the times where i could see your faces everyday and just play n talk n laugh tgt all e time!!!!! we look so young then esp dwee haha but those were e good old days that i'll hold dear to my heart for a long long long time :")